Wednesday, December 31, 2003

Happy New Year

So, yes, it is that time again. Yet this time I don't really feel as though there is anything to celebrate other than the love that God had for us and the fact that we made it through another year. I guess that is something, sorry.

I am currently listening to my husband and children fight over what to watch on the gigantic television in our very small living room. Sometimes I wonder........Never mind.

I was thinking about what it is that makes people want to go out in the freezing cold to drink themselves silly, so that they can be crammed in a huge crowd to watch the seven minute fire work show that they won't even remember the next day and that is IF they make it home. Really, what is the point in all of that. How do you know that you even had any fun if you can't remember? And where is the fun in a hang over? All of the ones I ever had back in the day sucked. So did having other people, (some you don't even know that well ) tell you the horrible details of what you did. And in today's world you have to pay for that kind of fun!!?!!! I am very glad to be home with my family.

Hope you have a safe and sober new year.

Tuesday, December 30, 2003

For the last week I have had to wake up at five to put drops in my eyes. This morning I woke up and watched it snow. Snow in the desert is so beautiful. A perfect day for soup and grilled sandwiches.

Pray for Shad to see God's love for him.

Sunday, December 28, 2003

Church was cool tonight. We listened to Keith talk. Hailey tried all of the worship activities tonight which was amazing to watch. All of the children at church are so beautiful.

I learned that I pray wrong. Well, not that I pray wrong, but that I am a fake prayer. I pray the safe prayers, instead of the true feelings I am feeling at the moment. As if God doesn't already know what is in my head and in my heart.

Saturday, December 27, 2003

Today was the greatest. I drove for coffee and could see all of the mountains clearer than ever. This has been one of my greatest gifts. (my children are higher on the gift list, right up there with my discovery of God which comes in first) At night I still have some trouble with halos, but that is getting better as well. I am amazed at what can be done to the eye today, but saddened that it is only available to those with either the money, or good credit. What a gift this would be for someone who can't afford even a pair of glasses. So many things are taken for granted by us all.

Thursday, December 25, 2003

Smile

Hope you all had a great time just celebrating His day.


I received the gift of sight for Christmas. I am so grateful, and amazed. I don't think I could explain how I feel, but I have dreamed of being able to wake up in the morning to the sound of my children, and to be able to see them standing at the side of the bed, not just see a fuzzy shadow of a person. I am still healing, but can see. Words can't express.



Monday, December 22, 2003

I C

So the eye doctor was nice, and seems to know his stuff, so I am scheduled for surgery tomorrow at 10:30am. Lets hope it all goes well.

I will let you know how things turn out.

Home

We are home, yet we are not home. We moved about a week ago, and then we finally got to stay at our new house on Saturday night. Who knew we would have been so attached to heat. It is a wonderful thing God has provided us with. (The house and heat)

Today I am going to the eye doctor to get my exams done so that tomorrow I can have my eyes done. The gift of sight is a big one for me. I am a bit nervous, however, I am confident that everything will be fine. I get to see with out contacts or glasses at Christmas!!!

I am missing everyone. Merry Christmas, Happy Birthday.

Monday, December 15, 2003

Tonight is the final night we stay here at the ranch. What an awesome time we have had. I love this family even more so than before.

There is still a lot of stuff to move. We will have a busy night tonight. I am glad to be going home though.




Sunday, December 14, 2003

Truth

We moved on Saturday, well, sort of. We moved all of the major things that we knew we would need help with. Speaking of help, I can't say thanks enough to Dave and Ramone, and yes, Joe! I am grateful to them for all of their help.

The house is feeling like a house, although we aren't staying in it as of yet. The heat isn't on until Tuesday, so there you go. We could sleep there, but choose to continue to be spoiled and sleep with heat here at the ranch. I am finally feeling a little excited about being in our own home. I have been so comfortable here and have totally enjoyed having another adult person to talk to during the day. I will miss hanging at the ranch so much, and feel so fortunate to have spent time getting to know this family. God is so amazing with how He teaches and leads us.

Friday, December 12, 2003

Just a quick note. We start moving tomorrow and it is going to be a great day. I plan on being at the house as early as possible to finish cleaning and to as much of the left over trim as I can. Then it is just a matter of waiting on the extention ladder. Who hoo, fun!

I started reading Authentic Relationships by Wayne and Clay Jacobsen. Easy read, good book.
I recommend it to everyone.

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

I feel great today!!! Okay, perhaps that is stretching it a bit, but I do feel better.

We sign on the house tomorrow, then move all night tomorrow night, all day Friday, and all morning Saturday. God is good.

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

You know you are sick when you walk into a room and the first thing said to you is "wow, you look bad, are you feeling alright?"


Sunday, December 07, 2003

Church was awesome. Tonight was one of those proud parent moments when we sat and saw our children grow right before our eyes. They were so beautiful tonight. Every single one of them. What a blessed way to celebrate Jesus.

Saturday, December 06, 2003

Wow!

We just got back from the new house, which we were given a key to early so we could do some painting. The dining room is blue, well purple hyacinth actually, and it looks great. I love the color. We will use the color through out the house, and we have plans for new flooring and such, it will look great! I am excited to have a new home.


The girls got to see their rooms for the first time and they love it. What a blessed day it has been. I can't wait to get it all finished and to have the family and friends come visit. We move in next weekend, so I will be painting all week. Fun, fun, fun!

On other news, Sheba keeps finding and killing gophers in the back yard. I find them with their little heads gone. Yuck! And she stinks like horse pooh. I can't wait to get her all cleaned up. She will miss Jack, and we are going to have to bring her over once in a while to visit with him. It will be very weird to be living in our own house again, as I have gotten very comfortable here with this family. By the way, check out the front room over here, it looks so good! Way to go Amy. It is so beautiful! Oh, Dave did good too.



Wednesday, December 03, 2003

So I thought I was getting better, but by dinner time, I was tired, and just wanted to rest my head, and woke up a couple hours later feeling worse than I have all week. I missed house church which sucks because I really wanted to go tonight, and now it is after midnight and I can't sleep.

I am going to clean this room and disinfect everything so that I can get better. I don't like to be sick.

We sign on our house on the 12th and move in that weekend. I know we will need help moving, but we will deal.

I feel as though I have been hiding out or something with missing house church so much and not being in touch with Susie and others. Things will get normal at some point I guess. God is so good to us.

Tuesday, December 02, 2003

Today seems better than most. Why? Who knows, it is just my perception. I feel better for one, and that means I have a bit more energy.

Last night I had an overwhelming feeling of God's love, and felt very much at home here. Not that I haven't felt that before, I just felt it more I guess.

Today I have a list of things to do, and I don't want to do most of those things, but, such is life.

I am getting my hair done today. Maybe a little color as well? We shall see!

Monday, December 01, 2003

Church was nice tonight. I was brought to tears by the singing too. So beautiful!

We should be hearing something about the house this week. I am going to try to get in early to get the painting done. Ruby Red is the color!



Saturday, November 29, 2003

So, we ruined the' chair. That really sucks. The dye just ran right out of it. Live and learn I guess.

It's down to blues and reds.
I helped Amy dye a chair tonight. It was cool. We aren't finished yet and neither one of us have any experience, but it was fun. I hope it turns out nice.

Thanksgiving was nice. I haven't called anyone from my side of the family yet, but they haven't called me either, so I guess that makes us even. I am sure they were all busy anyway.

I am excited to be getting into a new house and being able to decorate and paint again. Reds, blues, blacks and tans are all colors I am looking at. We shall see. Greens are still in the running as well. Silver and rod iron are a must. Oh what fun!!


Wednesday, November 26, 2003

Death Valley was so beautiful!! We had the greatest time, and saw some awesome views, etc. We took a moment to pray for everyone at six.

What is it about the mountains that are so attractive to me?

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

We are about to leave, just wanted to express my love and prayers to the Ohl's on this day.

My heart aches for them as do many others I am sure. I can not comprehend the emotion they have been going through, and will continue to go through. I pray for God's love to surround them as always, but even more so today. Healing will come in God's time. We will not be there tonight, but will be praying at that time where we are staying.

I hope that at 6pm, anyone who reads this will be saying a prayer as well for the Ohl family.

Sunday, November 23, 2003

Church was exactly what I needed tonight. Although there was a sadness in my heart, there was the reminder of God's love for us, and a good amount of time for reflection.

Greg did a great job.

I am filled with mixed emotions about the house. Although I am thrilled to be going to a place called home again, I am sad that we will be moving out of this house. Amy and Dave and the kids have been such an inspiration to me, and have taught me many things. I need to work on being a better friend, as I tend to be very lazy, and forget like an eighty year old which causes me to be even worse at follow through than usual. I feel like even though the house hunting turned into a stressful, and frustrating thing, Amy was so there for us, and helped us find our direction. She really took much stress out of it. I don't know that there are enough words to express just how grateful we really are for all of their help. I only hope that with the time we have left here we can drop the stress, and just live and learn.

We will be going on an overnight trip to Death Valley this week. (Shad's idea) We need a day or two to just process the past events. Many prayers to pray, many things to always be thankful for.

Saturday, November 22, 2003

God is so good. We found a house today, signed the papers, and should be bugging friends for help with moving in about two or three weeks.

Thanks to Amy for the free realty services.
You rock!

Friday, November 21, 2003

Still looking for a house. God will lead us.

Sounds like there are some issues with house church. That makes me sad.

Thursday, November 20, 2003

My troubles are very small and meaningless today. How very unbelievable, and very heavy on the heart. Many prayers to you and your family.



Another house, another rejection. No shit.

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

Another rejection. I feel like I have had enough.
Leaving it to God today and just trying to get things done.

I am missing my community. I guess I should be more active in it, then perhaps I would get more from it. You only get out of life what you put in.

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

God has a funny way of teaching us things.

We were turned down on our offer for the house we really liked.

Back to the drawing board.

God, I give it up to you.

Sunday, November 16, 2003

Being a parent is so hard sometimes. Like when one is sick and you have to sit and watch and wish you could take it all away but you can't. Or when the other one wants to do something that would probably be really fun, but you feel deep down that it wouldn't be the right thing to do, so you say no and can just feel the pain in their heart as they cry because they don't want to miss out on the fun that they know the other kids will have with out them.

My mother put "The Fear" in me as I call it. The fear of just about everything. I am trying not to pass it on to my girls, but find it hard not to. I hear all of these stories of kids being taken, raped, killed, whatever, and it breaks my heart. And to know that it could happen to anyone, even us, that just is a very scary thing. I can tell that I am going to have some major issues with letting them go as the times come. I already am. We are so blessed.

Pray for our friend Misty.
Pray for my friend, (brother) Michael and his father who is dying with cancer.
Pray for my brother's mother-in-law who is dying with cancer.
Pray for everyone who is dying with cancer.


I hate cancer.

What?

The house that we made an offer on sent us a counter offer, and then we countered their counter, and in the process we found out that what we were about to offer and buy this house for was not what it was really worth, and that was a concern which then made us realize that maybe this is not the right house.

So, We took back our counter of their counter and started all over again. We then found a house in an area that is close to where we used to live, but not that close. It was the nicest house with a big backyard, a quiet area, (we think) and well, just so perfect. It is older, but we like it, and we made an offer on it yesterday. We find out some info on Monday afternoon, and then we will go from there. If we get it, we might be in there before Christmas, otherwise it is just starting all over again. House hunting basically stinks. It was fun at first, but now...............Just stress!

Thursday, November 13, 2003

So I am sitting here thinking, work sucks, and.......I quit! No, not really, I have to do this. I made a commitment until January 1, and that is that.

There is this person who is threatening to sue because I sent a bill. :b

The extra things to do that have nothing to do with my job has started already, but I stuck to my guns and didn't budge. :) Yippy for me.

We received a counter offer to our offer on the house, that I think sucks. Sucks, that's my word for the day. So now we have to figure out of we accept it or not. I think not, but how bad do we want this house. I keep seeing other houses that are just perfect and they are sold before we can even look at them. Now that really sucks.

Sucks, sucks, sucks.

God doesn't suck. He Rocks! He loves me, and he loves you too. That's cool.

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

House

We made an offer on a house yesterday. It isn't in the area I thought we would end up in, however, when we drove up to it, I had this feeling. A feeling of calmness, and of peace. It is a small house, but with so much potential. The neighborhood is quiet, and well taken care of. It has all the space we need. I even felt this small connection to the lady who lived there. I know, that sounds very weird, right? She is from a small island near Jamaica and she was very polite and while we wondered her home, she sat in bed reading her Bible. We probably have nothing in common, yet I just felt very comfortable around her, and felt that there was a lot of history in this house.

Anyway, we gave her a couple of days to give us an answer, so we should know something for sure by the end of this week. It is all in God's control, and what a loving God He is.

Monday, November 10, 2003

Time to think

I've had some time to think which isn't always a good thing. For me, that can be dangerous. I am feeling comfortable in my skin these days. Although yesterday I realized that I still have some old habits that I really need to work on. One of those is talking too much. Not just talking on and on, but giving way too much information. I just really don't care what people think of the things I have done in my life. It is my life, and they were things that have gotten me to where I am now. If I had it all to do over again, I would do it all the same. And why should I change who I am for anyone other than God?

Sometimes I am not certain of where I am going, (as if anyone really is) so I get a bit sad, and then I decide to do something to make a difference so that I won't focus on that anymore. Like, cut all my hair off.

So when you are married, it is hard to be yourself because you are so focused on your family. It is like you lose yourself, and then it is so hard to find yourself again. And although you just want to be yourself, it might not mesh well with your partner, so then what? Do you change who you are to better fit in the couple mold? Or do you continue to try to be who you are, not budging an inch to perhaps better fit in the mold. Being a couple is hard, almost harder than being an individual. I wasn't even an individual for that long anyway, but then here I go dishing out too much information.



Friday, November 07, 2003

Hello

We are finally going to have a weekend with no plans. It has been a wild ride, but we are finally able to take a breath and reflect on the last few weeks. I miss my friends.

Tea at Starbucks is on my agenda for the morning with a good helping of reading on the side. I want to just take time to process what has been happening, then lose myself in a book for a while. God is very much in control, and I am loving it.

The Carder's are fun to live with. I learn something new every day that I am here, and I feel very comfortable here. Even Sheba is doing good. I think she is in love with Jack. That could be a problem when it comes time to leave.

I am so thankful and grateful for all of the prayers and help we received and continue to receive. You rock!

Prayers for my friend in Arizona. You are greatly missed, and loved. Talk to you soon.

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

Just a quick note. We are here at the Carderland Ranch and life is good. How time has flown by and so much has changed.

God is moving us in a good direction.

more later

Monday, October 20, 2003

Okay, so I am just trying to waist some time. I am so tired of packing and cleaning and painting and ..................So I thought I would take a moment to do nothing. Not that this is nothing, it is something, but it is not moving.

Why were we so sure that we would be moving out of state? I really felt that we would, yet we are destined to stay here longer. Part of me wonders if we did something wrong, yet the other part of me knows just how stupid that sounds. We didn't do anything that we weren't supposed to do. We are not in control, it is as simple as that. Shad is so depressed. I don't like seeing him like this. I am trying to be positive, and to keep him preoccupied with other things. Sometimes being married is very hard. I think I suck at being a wife, so I am not very good at being there for him when he needs me.However, we have been through so much in our marriage and made it, we will get through this as well. It takes time, patience, understanding, respect of space, etc.........

HURL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just thought I would take a moment to throw up the crap in my head before I get started with this day's work. There is much to do yet, and I want to do as much as possible so that Shad doesn't have to. I am tired, sad, and worried, but excited. We take so much for granted, and by we I mean Shad and I. We have lived in this house for five years and I don't think I truly appreciated it until now. That is so sad. I remember now why I wanted this house in the first place, what attracted me to it. I feel lucky to have had it. My prayer is that the people who are in here after us are as blessed as we have been, and that they are good neighbors, and take care of the place. I feel as though we are about to embark on a new adventure, the true adventure. Not that the other adventure wouldn't have been good, just that it is not a reality, so this means it is not the true place we were meant to go. God is keeping us in the dark, and that is cool. Surprises are the best when they are surprises.

Thanks to all who are praying, and helping us out with the move. Thanks to Amy and Dave for being brave enough to take us in under their wing. Thank you God, for all you do in our lives. You have blessed us with such an awesome community of family and friends.

Sunday, October 19, 2003

Finally an answer

Hi, for all of you who are waiting to hear what we are doing or not doing, well, there is no
reason to be leaving Las Vegas now, so the verdict is we stay. The house is still sold, we are still moving in with the Carder's, and then we are looking for a new home here. Unless something else comes up.

We prayed for an answer, and we got one. Too bad it was not the one we thought we wanted. God has another plan, so that is cool. Shad will think so too at some point, just not yet. God is so in control. Please pray for him.

I wonder if we can start another House Church in a new area where there isn't one yet. That would be very cool. Perhaps we will start a little commune of our own. What ever is in God's plan.

Friday, October 17, 2003

Fight Club

I took this test to see what movie I would best fit in, and it came up Fight Club. What's up with that?

Thursday, October 16, 2003

Thanks Amy for helping me out tonight.

I am so tired. I have hardly slept this week, and the week is not over yet. We have so many things going on, so many things to do. I look at all of our stuff and wonder why we feel the desire to keep so much crap. Yet as I pack stuff, I realize that everything has a story. It reminds me of something or someone, of an event both happy or sad. Crap, who knew.

So I am off to bed to finally get a few winks before the bug inspector gets here at 8:30am.

Thanks Susie for your awesome message of encouragement. I don't think there will be coffee this Saturday.

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

Is it over yet?

I am taking out a moment to sit and write some of the things in my head so that I stop stressing for a minute. I am feeling good, yet it is the most bizarre feeling when selling a house. This is our first house, and we have been here five years. To think that in two weeks we will not be here anymore, ever, is just weird. Will I forget and try to drive here anyway? Will the person buying it take care of it, will they treat the neighbors good? Will they take out our cool tree in the front yard? Will they get rid of the morning glories that seem to be over taking the tree? Will Dave and Amy get sick of us and boot us to the curb?

Okay, I'll stop. Like I am ever in control anyway. I am just here for the ride. Whatever happens, I hope that the people who live here after us are just as blessed as we have been. This has been a house of healing for us. There have been a lot of good memories here and I am just grateful to have been able to live in this house, and to have had the privileged of having house church here for a year. God is so good, and we are so not worthy. The appraiser will be here at nine. Nail biting time!

Time to go to my other job out in the den.

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

AAAHHHH!!!!!!

So we sold the house today, well, for the most part. We accepted an offer, and so we wait to see if it goes through. In the mean time, they want in by the end of the month, so we have two weeks to get out. As if we don't have enough going on right now. So we pack. We pack fast, and start moving right away. Who knew things would move so quickly.

I just took a break from working on the billing stuff to jot a note or two. I have a computer on a coffee table, and I am sitting on the floor trying to input information. It is so very uncomfortable, and my back hurts, however, I am getting a lot of work done and making progress. I even did some packing today, and managed to go to house church to beg for packing and moving help. We will need it.

Well, I am off to finish my work day in my P.J.'s.
We had four offers on the house last night and while going over them all with our realtor, we had more people wondering through the house to see it. We don't even have a sign up yet, and we might have already sold it. How crazy is that? If the offer goes through that we accepted, we have to move by the end of this month! Help!

Guess who had about two hours sleep last night.

Monday, October 13, 2003

Table for one!

I feel as though I should be charging people at the door for coming into our house and wonder through it. We have six cards sitting on the counter of people who have shown our house and we just listed Saturday! We also have three offers already! What is God trying to tell us here, "Get out!" or what? It is all very crazy and Shad keeps changing his mind like every five minutes. I guess it could be worse and there could be no one looking at our house. I just feel like this is all going so stinking fast. On top of it all I am trying to bail out my sister-in-law at her place of business, and do home schooling at the same time as packing and everything else.

Well, if nothing else, it feels good to whine a little bit not that it will change anything. I guess I should get the laundry done. Oh but wait, there are about six people at the door wanting to see the house. I guess I better go.

Sunday, October 12, 2003

Oh my!

So we listed the house yesterday, and we have had four couples here today to look at the house! It is only 2pm and we listed yesterday afternoon. God, are we doing the right thing? Definitely yes. This is a very bizarre thing for us as these people just call up, then come by and all of these strangers are walking through our house looking at all of our things. Shad is trying to watch football, so he has the TV up really loud and keeps yelling stuff at it like the team in the box can hear him. My girls are looking at all of these people and wondering what the heck is going on, yet they understand that this means they will be living with some church family really soon and are very excited. I feel a little overwhelmed by it all, but I guess this is all a good thing. God is very much in charge. Nothing to worry about.

Saturday, October 11, 2003

A good day

I had a great day today. I went to the mountains with my friend and took a very nice walk on a trail that led us to a little creek bordered by pine trees. We talked about stuff, and it was great to be out of the city and in the fresh air surrounded by the beauty of the mountains and just all of God's creations. Next we finally put our house up for sale. It was a big decision, and there is still a lot to be done, but the first steps have been taken, so that feels good. Then we saw one of our nephews and celebrated his birthday with a little cake, ice cream, and some play station 2.

We ended our night with a discussion about trusting God to be in control and to stop all the "what if" stuff. Life is good and we are blessed.

Friday, October 10, 2003

Hellooooo..

Did some fun stuff today like cleaning, food shopping, and taking a siesta on the front lawn. I wonder what my neighbors think when they see me outside laying on the front lawn taking a nap. My pharmacy tech license is about to expire and I am still not sure I want to renew it. Is it a waist of $35? I have no plans to ever work in another pharmacy again, however, I forget that God is always in charge, not me.

My kids are showing some awesome interests in learning this week. That has really made me feel better about home schooling. Perhaps I am doing something right? It all started when we got out of the house and went to the mountains to explore. They have been on a learning high ever since.

Oh good, it's movie time. We are watching "The Italian Job" tonight. I'll let you know what I think. Shad picked it out.

Thursday, October 09, 2003

I am so grateful for the things we have. So much so that I would love to give them all away. I am not sure what God is about to throw at us, but I am in a situation where I really need to think before I act. I was offered a part time, temporary job and I am not sure I want to get involved in the mess of it all. Of course, I have to think of our financial situation and in doing so I realize that this could be a good thing. However, I cringe at the thought of it because something doesn't seem right. Why would God provide a job right at this point in time? Like He is going to just pop His head through the wall and tell me. Perhaps I am making too much of it all. After all, I really don't know the whole story, but do I really want the stress of this job back? No, but we need the money. Do we need it that bad? Well, kind of. Do I know that I am even being offered money to do this? Not exactly, but they wouldn't expect me to just do the work for free would they? Yep. And they would because I would be dumb enough to offer my help free of charge. And just why would I charge them for all of this anyway? Because we need the money. I hate money. This is a really bad thing I am about to get into I think. I say about because I already said I would help. Why do I just jump before I look? Haven't I learned by now! This sucks! I could always change my mind, but the situation is a bit sticky. I hate sticky! I should have just pushed for the job of passing flyers. Then I could have had a good out for this situation. Should of, could of, would of. None of that matters now. I need to go spit.

Blink blink

Whoa it's early. I can hardly believe that I used to get up earlier than this. Crazy! I have two extra kids today. That is kind of cool because it puts a new twist to our day. I think we will hang outside for most of it. School's in the front yard!!


God, thank you for allowing us to be there for our friends, thank you for showing us just how truly precious our life with you is, and I pray that you continue to give us spiritual eyes to see you in everything in and around us.

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

Love

I just had to title it Love because I can.

I had a great day with the girls, and visiting with my friends. We went to the meadow to frolic in the woods and be one with the ants and stuff. I went to work out, but ate first, so my stomach hurts and I feel like crap. It will pass I am sure. A clean desk makes me happy. We have an appointment Saturday to talk to a realtor about the house selling stuff. Woo hoo! It is amazing how things can move right along when you make a decision. For all of you waiting on pins and needles to see if Shad is or isn't, well............................. We still don't know, but he called and they said we should know something by next Tuesday. That something could just be that they are still doing back ground stuff, so don't get all in a hurry to kick us out of here just yet. More of the "hurry up and wait" but at least it is something.

Anyone who wants to help us pack some stuff is welcome to come visit us on Friday afternoon as I will be in packing mode to get as much stuff out of the way as possible. Who knows, you might even get to take something home! Yippy!

Storm

I had a dream that I was living in a small town, and there was a meadow, and great big trees, and I was looking for something, to take pictures of I think, and all of a sudden the sky erupted in a huge storm. I kept looking in the sky to see if the clouds were going to produce a tornado, and they did. I ran to what I thought was a place to hide from the storm, but it wasn't the right place, and then I realized that there were family members in the house that didn't even know what was going on. I ran to the house to tell them, and saw lightning strike very near. I stood there fascinated for a moment by the incredible sight before me. I snapped out of it and ran inside and started screaming for everyone to get out. We all ran to a building that had a large hole in the floor that we were supposed to go down, but I didn't want to go in. It didn't feel right.

I then sat up in bed and realized that I needed to get up to go to the mountains. So, off we go.

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

Is this thing on?

Tonight's house church was good. It felt good to be together. I missed most of the group stuff, but that really isn't what I was talking about anyway. Just having everyone around, and hanging out. That is really my favorite part. Being community. I wish we could all hang out a lot more than we do. The kids doing their show was, in my opinion, awesome. We all gathered together to watch them perform something they totally collaborated on their own. We were like family, and that was really cool.

Things change, and God continues to grow in us. We will always be family no matter where we are.

Blink Blink

Morning time, oh happy day. I had a dream, but I can't repeat it, too much stuff to share. We are still waiting to hear the word, but going to sell anyway. There is a lot to do, but I needed to clear my head first. I listened to a Black Sabbath song last night while at the gym, and heard the real message in it for the first time. It was one of the old ones, the good ones. It sounded bad at first glance, but when I really just listened to the words, it was a powerful message. Anyhoo, lots to do today so I guess I should get started.

Monday, October 06, 2003

Shhhhh

Today was like a whirlwind, flying by tossing everything up in the air. But not a total twister, so all was well. I am trying to workout every night, and I am doing good so far. Tonight at the gym there was this little pile of guys all exercising in front of the only TV that had the football game on. They were all working out as hard as could be, and as the last play of the game was executed, they all hollered and raised their arms up in the air and quickly dispersed. It was all very comical.

The new water restrictions have started to turn our grass brown. Perhaps it is time to go with the ever popular rock look.

Quiet

There is something about being up in the morning when everyone else is asleep. The quiet of the house is very peaceful. It calms me. I had a dream that Shad got the job. Now if only we heard something in reality.

Sunday, October 05, 2003

Learning

It is great to be able to learn that there is so much I still have to learn. Ummm, what? Right!

This weekend was one of the best I have had in a very long time. I was able to spend time with friends and family and most importantly, God. What more could I ask for?

Saturday, October 04, 2003

Happy Birthday to me!

Today has been the best day. I spent the morning with friends hiking, and then the afternoon with family by the pool. I have lots of pictures to remind me of my day as well.

Friday, October 03, 2003

Time Out!

The kids are gone, and I am having some much needed alone time at the moment. The weather is getting cooler and it felt good to be outside today. We ( the girls and I ) sat outside in the front yard and had school, and then lunch. Later, when it was dark, we were driving across town, and the girls were playing some kind of game, and my youngest daughter said "Hey, stop the game and look outside. The city lights are so beautiful!" I just thought how cool it was that she would stop in the middle of a game to notice the lights of the city. She is only five. What five year old takes time out to smell the roses? You can learn a lot from a kid.

Dog

We are going to walk the dog today. It is starting to become an every day thing which is good for the dog. It is good for us as well because we get out of the house and exercise. But there is one thing I can't stand about walking the dog. Why do they (dogs) have to stop and smell other dog's poop and stuff? That is just so gross! Do they know they are smelling other dog's doo? That just can't be healthy.

On other news, tomorrow is my birthday trip to the mountain. I can hardly wait to get there and smell the fresh air and listen to the silence. I have so many things to thank God for.

Thursday, October 02, 2003

Happiness is...

Happiness is having a friend who you haven't talked to in a long while call you out of the blue to catch up on stuff.

Okay, so I am getting a little corny, but it is true for me.

Yuck! :b

Home schooling is hard. It takes a lot of energy that I don't always have but some how we manage to get it done every day. I read how a lot of people will sometimes try to pressure you into thinking that you are doing everything wrong. I feel that this week. It makes me stronger though, so I guess that is good. I don't like being told that I am wrong, but feel that I am a lot. I guess I feel like I beat up on myself enough and don't need the help.

The air is heavy today.

Dream

Just woke up. Yes, I slept really good, and had a weird dream about having a car, but choosing to ride a skateboard across town to a small child care center where there were people I knew. Susie was there, but she was sick and was leaving. That bumped me out but I stayed and was taking care of some paperwork, and the kids were sleeping. Then this little girl busted into the room and was being chased by a little yippy dog and was scared. The girl had a balloon and the yippy dog just wanted to play with it. She didn't understand. I started to play with the dog, and then all of the kids woke up from the noise and there was total chaos in the room.

I dream all of the time and most of my dreams are very strange. This one is not so strange. The funny part was that while I was riding the skateboard, I was trying to do tricks on it. Now that is weird. And I remember now that there were people walking around looking at me like I was crazy, and I almost ran into a car that had it's door open and there was thumping music blaring from it. And there was a school that it was parked next to.

Okay, enough of this crazy stuff.

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

Money

I hate money, and the fact that life revolves around it. I have a business and can't run it properly without money. Or maybe I suck at my business. Probably, but it is still my business, and a way to create income. Much needed income.

I was thinking about how we are the church, and how that means that no matter where we go, we are bringing church with us, and I thought of how my mom always wants to have my cousin come to house church. Why couldn't I go there, and be the church with them. Every family has their issues, so why not be the church at all times and especially when with messed up family? But then that is it right? We need to be the church at all times, and that means always living for God and never ourselves. As if it were that easy. Perhaps it is. Have I ever tried it? No, because I am a sinner and would screw it up some how. But then, by being a sinner and screwing up, we tend to teach someone something. Sometimes that someone is just ourselves learning the lesson and that is good.

I was able to play the scales with both hands at the same time today on the piano, and I learned how to read music over the last two days. Yippy for me.

Pumpkins

We picked pumpkins and apples. I don't even know what I am going to do with them yet, but it was really fun. Maybe we will go back another day this week and pick veggies.

Ah, October!

Yes, my favorite month is finally here! And we get to start the month off with a trip to an orchard. Very cool and happy for me. I woke up with a new calmness today. God is in control, so all I have to do is be.

Sometimes I don't understand, and I guess that is how it is meant to be, because if I understood, then I wouldn't need to learn, and without learning, I am just a lump of flesh wondering around with no purpose. That is assuming that my purpose is to learn, and I am sure there might be more to it than that, but then, I am just learning about all of that. Right?

Tuesday, September 30, 2003

Ummm

Tonight's house church was weird and I felt a bit uncomfortable. Perhaps it is just the whole newness of it all. It is far away, but big enough for the kids. It was the same as it ever was though, and I don't see yet what the plan will be, but that is all in God's hands. Perhaps as time goes on it will feel a bit more comfortable. It was nice to be able to just leave and not have to worry about cleaning up. Not that that was ever a concern anyway, but it was nice.

Tomorrow I am going to the Orchard with the girls and the play group. It should be fun. My goal is to bring home lots of fruit and pumpkins and to have as much fun as possible at the Orchard with everyone. Sounds like the opportunity for a picture moment.

Life in limbo kind of sucks right now. I really, really want to know what the future will bring Shad and I. I really want to just know if we are moving out of state, or not. I can pretty much care less where we move to. Time to read to the girls.

Cool

I am filled with excitement as I wait for the start of the new house church meeting that will not be here but there. I have talked to God about the way I was behaving and feel that I understand what was being taught.

Oh happiness

I figured out how to change some things with my blog and it makes me feel so good to know that I was able to do it. I am so computer inept, so this is a really good accomplishment for me.

Pat, pat, pat on the back for me. :)

Whoa!

I am reading The Prophet and finding it very heavy indeed. I have read it once before, but was not in a state of mind that I could really grasp a thing from it. Today it is much different.

Monday, September 29, 2003

Yawn

The end of another beautiful day. Although I have had negative self thoughts today, I refuse to listen to them. I thought I heard God in my head today telling me to trust Him, so that is what I will try harder to do.

I love to read what goes on in another's head. It reminds me.

Tomorrow is the last day of the month. I love October. I tried to not like it, but I can't. The weather gets cooler, the Moon starts to rise and looks like it could take over the sky. Like I could just reach right up and cup it in my hands and hang it in my room. Cause that is what I would do if I could scoop up the moon.

Groovy!!!!

Church last night was great. Very relaxing, so very much what I needed. I have been avoiding God's direction the last few days. I am back on track I think. My Saturday hiking trip is fast approaching. I am excited to see what God will have me experience on that morning.

Today is Library day. Can't wait to walk into the building full of books and discover all of it's mystery and watch my girls run through it with eyes full of wonder and curiosity. No time like the present.

Sunday, September 28, 2003

Lazy Sunday

The storm for the most part has passed, and the work begins. That is how I feel today. Lots of cleaning, lots of laundry, lots of thoughts floating in my head.

Music seems to be the one passion I can't shake. I've had this piano tagging along in my life for years, and I have tried to get rid of it, but would suddenly change my mind. There is this strange attachment that I have to it. Memories of my father belting out beautiful ballads, and everyone gathered around him listening with smiles.

My mother wanted me to learn to play it, or give it to someone who would take better care of it. I used the piano as an isle once, to do paintings on just to piss her off and refused to take a lesson or treat it with respect. It worked and she got mad. That made me happy. (yes I am a rotten child at times.)

I never had the desire to learn to play the thing. However, recently, I have decided to do just that while teaching my girls at the same time. I am not sure why, but I can't dwell on the why's. I just have to do it and let go of the questions.

Perhaps we can make memories that will stick in the minds of my girls, and perhaps they will some day drag it along where ever they go, use it, abuse it, and so forth.

Saturday, September 27, 2003

I Don't Get It?

My father has perfect timing. He always seems to call or show up right at the moment that my life is the most stressful. I don't understand how this happens, but it does. Anyway, this day has been crappy. It started out really good with a nice conversation with a good friend, and some yummy tea. As soon as I got home, the whole day changed. I was in trouble, and there was tension. Then, after a long afternoon of stress, my day got even more crappy when there was another bout of trouble and this time a "I'm going out" with the slam of a door. To top it off, my father calls to tell me he is in town for the night and wants to go eat. Okay, well, am I forgetting anything here, like I am sure I am supposed to be doing something tonight. Then, my mom shows up out of the blue, and I am just trying to pretend it is all okay. I just wanted to scream, but the children are running around all happy and in no way aware that there is any stress at all. I make a decision, I will call some one from my church family and let it out because I am in need to talk to somebody.


We decide to go out to meet my father and have a good conversation on the way. Okay, so things went well, and the stress was a bit better. Then I remember that I was supposed to call my good friend and meet her tonight. Great, more stress, and now I am just a crappy friend. Oh, and I suck at money management.

I have had worse days, and better. I was glad to see my dad, yet wish it could have been at a better time. I am sure God has his reasons for it all. Some of them I think I get, and have learned. (The money management part.)However, the whole thing with my mom showing up and my dad just happening to be in town for the day. I sure don't get it.




Thursday, September 25, 2003

God is great at teaching me a lesson by allowing me to behave like a total child at times. I just wish I didn't have to make an ass out of myself in the learning process, but then if I didn't, I wouldn't learn anything would I?

A good morning so far, I woke up to the giggles of my girls, and the morning glories are in full bloom.
I am sleepy, but still awake. What's up with that?

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

Was just having a moment to think about the events of this last week. I am sad to be loosing a good friend because some jerk can't seem to get it together. I know things happen for a reason, but it doesn't make it any easier.

After a long talk, we have decided to not go to the new house church but instead just go to the Sunday night gathering. This will be a little difficult for me I think. I really love house church gatherings. It is for the best though. Perhaps I can start hanging out with Alicia on Tuesday nights somewhere near her house. Life is so funny.

My hands are all dry and they look really old and stuff. That's kind of wired. Sleepy time.

Tuesday, September 23, 2003

Wow, we just finished with our last house church here at our house and I am relieved and sad at the same time. So many things are changing, and that is what so many wanted and needed, so praise God that their prayers are being answered.

Now, the fun begins with the house as I start my dismantling. I am eager to throw things out, and pack things up. I will miss hanging with everyone every week.
Quick! Ten things I like about my mom:

1. She is stubborn
2. She taught me to be stubborn
3. She has a huge heart
4. She has only ever loved one man
5. Her love of family
6. Her ability to argue
7. Forbanders
8. Her smile
9. Her big brown eyes
10. Her spirit

Okay, ten things I like about my dad:

1. His musical talent
2. His charm and charisma
3. His blue eyes
4. His adventurous spirit
5. His wise counsel
6. His stubborn side
7. He has a huge heart
8. His ability to turn a recipe into a party
9. His soft hair
10. His impatience

Wow, I am on a roll, so ten things I like about my brother:

1. His huge heart
2. His ability to turn anything into something to laugh about
3. His blue eyes
4. His will and strength
5. His passion for family
6. His hugs
7. His smile
8. His laugh
9. His stubbon nature
10. His longing for love

Okay, ten things I like about my sister:

1. Her beautiful smile
2. Her resemblance to our father
3. Her wise counsel
4. Her wild spirit
5. Her strength
6. Her huger than huge heart
7. Her love of nature
8. Her love and devotion to her daughter
9. Her stubbon streak
10. Her laughter
11. Oh, wait, I said only ten,


Okay, so to be fair, ten things I like about me:

1. my love for my family
2. my toes
3. my eyes
4. my hair
5. my birth marks
6. my stubbornness
7. my strength
8. my ability to change my hair color when I feel the need
9. my courage
10. my ability to calmly cuss a person out in my head instead of in front of my children. (hey, no person is perfect)

Sitting here feeling blessed to be alive, married to my love, having two beautiful and gifted children, for having morning glories in the front yard, and air to breath.

Today will be our last house church here at our house. I am excited for it's future and saddened by its departure. God had blessed us with an ever growing church family who have guided us in our journey to and with God. I am so grateful to have these people in my life, and so excited to see the ways in which God is growing us all.

Happy, happy, joy, joy. House church, house boat, house boat church where people gather, they stay, they go, they explore, they fish, they catch, they let go, they settle, they hoist the anchor and then go, forever traveling on an unknown journey with the same final destination.

Great, one more thing to add to my list of to do before I die things, live on a boat.

Monday, September 22, 2003

Relationships are a mystery, and separation sucks. Having to tell a child that the hardest and most confusing thing is probably the right thing. What words can a parent use to convey their deepest emotional pain in the most soft and painless way so that the child will not get too frightened and perhaps understand to some degree the situation at hand? I can only sit back and watch it all unfold my friend, and offer my ear, my shoulder, and my prayers on the matter. I feel helpless, just wanting to be able to know the answer and yet not having it. God is in full control. We just have to trust.

Monday is here, and I don't even feel like I have finished Sunday yet. There are still so many things to do. I missed church and that just sucks. Pretty much, I slept through it, only I was here, and not there. My neck hurts, my throat hurts, and that sucks too. It will be all better in the morning though. I have read some blogs that aren't mine, and I kind of feel like I should apologize because even though they were awe inspiring, they were thoughts of people I don't really know, so I feel a bit like an intruder. Or, perhaps I should thank them for sharing their thoughts with the world so that people like me can learn a thing or two.

God, could you just let this week be the week that we find out what is going on with the whole job thing? I am a pretty patient woman when it comes to most things, but this is really starting to get to me. I would just like to see some kind of progress going on. And while you are at it, could you just accept my thanks for reminding me what a pain in the ass I really am to you what with my nagging, and my inability to trust you. I always seem to learn something when I talk to you. You rock!! Amen

Sunday, September 21, 2003

Insomnia sucks. I have had it for about a year, maybe more. I thought it was getting better but I guess I am wrong.

I was driving today and looking at others in their cars and was struck with the odd way we all look sitting in these little metal boxes with wheels, polluting the air as we selfishly carry ourselves from one place to another, forgetting that God gave us legs for such a thing.

How odd it must have been to be one of the people to first experience such a thing. My grandmother was born in 1904. She was twenty in the 1920's, and thirty in the 1930's, and so on, and I often wonder what it must have been like for her to see so many things change as her life went on. She died in 1994 at the age of 90. She saw the depression, the wars, the roaring twenties, the first cars, the first televisions, the first color televisions, the women's rights movement, the first man on the moon. Unfortunately I never had much of an interest in learning about what her life was like while she was still here. I was too caught up in being a brat child, caught in my own drama, pretending to know everything. Oh the things we regret when we get older. I think about her a lot. I believe she is my guardian angel, watching over me, helping me along my path. I miss her.



Saturday, September 20, 2003

Okay, I survived the game. Well, actually, I really loved the game. It was one of the best we have been at in a long time. I was screaming and yelling and jumping up and down. I almost lost my voice by the end of it all and UNLV won 33-22. There were over 36,000 people there so it was very loud, and there were a few fights which kind of sucked because while people were standing up trying to see what was going on, there were some good plays made that they all missed.

I guess I have to confess, I am truly a football fan. More so this year than ever. I will have to blame Shad for this one. Football and design shows. Those seem to be my weakness these days. What a sad case I am. It could be worse I suppose. I could be throwing time away by watching mystery Science Theatre every Saturday as well. Wait, I do that too. I guess I am a hopeless case after all. The best part of the whole night, however, was about five minutes from home when I started laughing uncontrollably for no reason what so ever. I was laughing so hard I was crying. There was really nothing funny going on, I just started laughing and couldn't stop. I laughed the whole way home. It felt good.

This morning I saw my friend Susie, and we had coffee. She is such an inspiration to me. So strong and gifted in so many ways. Sometimes I envy her freedom. Other times I envy her gift with children. God's love just oozes out of her whenever she is around a child. What an awesome gift.

Friday, September 19, 2003

"How do the stars stay up in the sky?" Try explaining that one to your five year old. Kids are the best. They teach me something new every day. And I always thought it was supposed to be the other way around. Show what I know.

So I am going to see UNLV try to beat Hawaii tonight. (Someone, please save me from my football obsessed husband!!!) Yep, can't hardly wait to get there. Didn't get enough football on Sunday and Monday night, oh, and the Thursday college games as well. (please help!)
We got better seats this time, mine is in front of his in a totally different row. At lease we aren't anywhere near the student section. Woooohoooooo! Go Rebels!(help me!)



Thursday, September 18, 2003

Praise God!!!!

My phone is working and we didn't have to pay for it! This makes me so happy. Not happy that the phone is fixed, but happy that we didn't have to give our first born to pay for it.
What a good day it has been so far. I even woke up this morning with an overwhelming feeling of "it's all going to be okay, cause God is so in control" so I have been happy all morning.

I have picked a day for my journey in Red Rock. My birthday! It just happens to fall on a Saturday which is the perfect time of the week for me to do something without the kids. I am so stinking happy today I can hardly stand it. What is up with that? I feel like one of those people that others like to hate, you know, the kind of person who is all chipper and skippy and whoo hoo happy in your face, and all you can think of is to poke them in the eye or something. It could be the tea I just got at megacoffeegivemeallyourbucks. Noooooo, couldn't be.

I am taking this energy to the messy part of the house. You know, all of it.

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

Where is the love? I mean really, where is the love? I can't use my phone for five days and when I call to have someone come fix it, they want to charge $40 plus $20 for every 15 mins extra!!!! Can it be that hard to fix a stinking phone!?!?!?!?!!?!?
Does anyone else see the wrong in all of this?

Whew, okay, I feel better now. Bad air out, good air in.

I saw an old friend from when I was just a little girl. She used to watch me while my mom was at work and her mom used to make the best muffins and rice pudding. They were amazed that I remembered who they were. It was weird, but nice to see them. She told me that her sister had just lost her husband six months ago. Her sister has a six year old and a twelve year old, both girls. I can't even imagine what she is going through. Prayers to them.

I am planning a trip to the mountains, well, Red Rock. I am going to hike the loop. It is an eleven mile hike and not easy at certain points. I want to invite my church family, but I am not sure who would be interested in going. Everyone is always so busy with life. Me included. But I am making an effort to try and make sure I take time out for myself once in a while to do the things I have always wanted to do. Thanks for the book Joe, I am going to read the last chapter after all. Who isn't in denial once in a while. :b

List of some of the things I want to do before I die:
(not in any particular order)

Hike the loop
climb a mountain
build a dark room
(for developing photos silly)
Read a book a month for a year
learn to ski
write a book
get re-married to my husband
take a real honeymoon
travel the world
visit all of the states
learn to sew
learn as many languages as possible
lose the extra weight
plant a church everywhere I go
get a degree in something!
start a business
get my eyes fixed with the lazer thing
read the whole Bible, not just bits and peices
learn to play the piano
write a song
grow a garden and not kill it
learn to cook



perhaps I will add more some other time.
Oh what a day it has been and it isn't even over yet. It just stinks when you have to destroy a room with searching through old papers and other crap you never wanted to have to remember or thought you would never have to look at again.

I saw the doctor today and was pleasantly surprised by her reaction to my questions regarding some natural health remedies. She is very interested in a cream I am going to start using. Go Doctor Z!!!!

Have you ever wondered why a banana chip doesn't get all brown? And why is a grape a grape when it is all juicy and plump, but it is called a raisin when it is all shriveled up and small? An apricot is still an apricot, but it is a dried apricot. They could have just called them dried grapes.No, wait, shriveled grapes. That is kind of fun to say. SHRIVELED GRAPES.

Whatever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

I have this friend who suffers from depression just like me, only I take my pill, and this person doesn't. I wanted to yell out "just take the pills and the suffering will end!" but it really doesn't. I am tired of having to rely on a pill to keep my sanity. I am always in a state of constant contentment. I am never overly excited, or extremely depressed, I am just always fine. Where is the fun in that? Perhaps that is the problem, always being in control of my emotions causes me to not be in a state of emergency, ever. So when that is all you ever knew, I suppose it would be hard to live a "normal" life. I want to be excited about something, to loose myself in an activity. I can't seem to do that anymore. Yet, here I sit in front of the computer spilling my guts to who knows who as the time ticks away.

Maybe I am wrong, and I can get excited about things, I am just bored these days. A scary place for a person who relies on a little pill for their sanity.

I've spent a lot of time in my life giving advice to friends, and always wondering what it is that makes them think I have the knowledge that they seek. It stopped for a while, but has started up again, just when I am in the middle of trying to find my calling if you will. So I can listen and counsel, what am I to do with that?

Sometimes we want to believe that the gifts God gave us are not what he really wants us to use, but instead there must be something else out there that we have missed. I keep looking for the answers out there, but they are already right here. I just need to look closer, believe, and trust.

Trust is the hardest part.

I've been floating through the air and reaching for the stars,
I see your familiar silhouette yet I know not who you are.
As you grasp my out-stretched hand and bring me into the light,
I start to doubt your love and realize you are fading out of sight.

Cheese!



Monday, September 15, 2003

Today I spent time with my family at Red Rock. We went on some small trails, took a few pictures, talked about the desert, the plants, saw a donkey, some squirrels, and savored the fresh air and quiet. It felt good to be out of the house and away from people.

I was inspired to write, but was unable to find the time as I was busy with the kids and my husband. I have decided that I want to hike the loop, and will invite everyone from house church to join me. We can pack lunch, then pick a cool day in October and make a day of it. If no one else shows up, then what an awesome experience it will be for me and God.

There is just something about the smell of the desert, the massive beauty of the surrounding mountains, the dry wind, the hot sun. I think that for the first time, I really love where I live, and I am realizing how sad it will be to leave it all for the unknown.

It is almost funny how one of the things I longed for the most (true friendships) became a reality right when I am faced with having to leave. I will miss my friends, their kids, our coffee on Saturdays, our work outs during the week. I will miss a lot of things, but my church family the most. Sigh!
This is a new concept for me, but I feel that it might help me rest my hand from all of the writing I do in my home journal, not to mention all of the trees it saves!

I think this will be good therapy if you will. I need a way to get out the thoughts faster than my hand can write them. I don't make a lot of sense sometimes. I am a horrible speller as well, so if you read this, you will just have to deal.

I have been searching for an answer for the last few years, or maybe more, from God as to what I am to do with this life. Funny how a person who is married with children can have such an identity crisis, but I have been like this for years.

I guess I could blame it on my family, but I tried that already and realized that it just doesn't work that way. I am responsible for my actions, therefore it is my fault I am in the state I am in. Don't get me wrong, I am not bad off in any way compared to millions of other people in this world. Compared to most I have a great life. I am just not content with where I am at. (Yeah, me and millions of others. ) So, I search every day for that one sign that will tell me what to do, or which way to go. Sometimes I think I must just be blind and stupid because I still haven't seen it and yet I continue to look for it. And most days I figure it is right under my nose and God just isn't ready for me to find it. Or , I am not ready.

Anyway, strap on your seatbelts and be prepared because this is probably going to be a hell of a ride. Perhaps my purpose is to blog every event so that someone somewhere might learn a thing or two.

sam

Sunday, September 14, 2003

Sunday September 14, 2003

Just beginning my first blog, and I am not sure what I am doing, but I guess I will figure it out very quickly. I am used to journaling in a book every other day, so this is a bit wierd for me.

Perhaps this will be a good learning tool for me.

I will have to see how this goes and take one day at a time.