I woke up feeling a bit sore. Funny, I thought, to be sore when I haven't even worked out yet. Then I went to take in a deep breath to stretch and that is when I felt the sickness deep down in my chest. I didn't want to believe it so I ignored it for a whole day, but finally last night I came to realize that I am getting sick. It better not be that frickin pneumonia.

This morning I woke up at 6am because I just couldn't sleep any more. My body hurt too much. However, I took 800mg of Motrin and I am feeling pretty good now. I still see a quick care visit in my future.

Nap time


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What the....!

So we get to have a visit this weekend from Shad. He comes in Friday night and leaves Sunday. Quick but needed. Then it is another month. :(

He then graduates in November, and right after that we go to find a house, then right after that the movers get here and we are gone. Like, just that fast! How does it all come together? How does it work out? Only God knows. Our date to be gone is Dec. 12.

Crazy shit.

In the mean time I am trying to get things packed up and cleaned up and moved out so we can be ready. I need to paint some and will be doing that hopefully tomorrow. Want to come over and paint? Right!

So life has been crazy, and I am trying to do school and be active in our group, but it has been hard. My baby is feeling much better and that has helped. My baby, okay so she is 7 and that realy doesn't count as being a baby, but she will always be my baby so get over it.

I miss my church family. I have been so crazy that I am not connecting with them as I should. And it is going to suck when we leave you all.

We need prayer. And I need help with this stinking house.

Blessings to you all.

Pneumonia

Yep, Kenzie has it and my poor baby had to get a shot in the ass. It hurt her and she cried and that just sucked. I wanted to slap the nurse at first, but then remembered when I had a job like hers. It sucks to be the one to have to deliver bad news or have to stab someone with a needle.

So, after a full day at the doctors, we finally got to come home. I have another week of activities to cancel, and a mountain of laundry to do to make sure we all don't get sick. Not to mention the fact that I am trying to sort through things and store things and move shit and find a house in a place I have never been to, do a job I can hardly concentrate on, all while teaching my children something everyday so we don't fall behind in school. Yep, I am totally dumping my crap all over this thing. Sometimes you just have to throw up all of the shit on your mind. Did I mention that I broke a toe? I know, whaaaaaah!

Good things: we have made some progress on the rooms upstairs, we have narrowed down the areas we need to be looking for a house in, and Shad will be here in less than two weeks for a visit. Hey Zack, if you are out there, PLEASE BUY OUR TV SO I CAN FIX UP MY LIVING ROOM!!!! PLEASE!!!!! and I just know that there are a lot of you out there who would love to come over and do some painting with me right?

On other news, well, I don't have a whole lot of other news. Just whinning and a longing for a night out.

Love to all

Crappy week

I have had to cancel all of the things we have had planned this week because Mackenzie is sick. And, I am a stress case these days. There is a lot in my life that I don't share with my friends. I should. Maybe.

So I am off to find storage containers and boxes and such. I have a ton to do with this house and am not getting enough done. I make to many plans with good intentions, and then act horribly on them. I just have to remember that I can't do everything and I can't please everyone. I just have to take one day at a time.

Our new additions to the family...

Welcome Little Baby and Tiny to our family. They are the girls new turtles that just arrived home tonight. They are so small, and cute.

Oh, right, don't tell Shad because he doesn't know yet. It's kind of like a surprise!!!!!

If you know me and live around here and have kids who would like to come over and take a look, let me know. This has been a great education for my kids and has caused them to have to work together. I am loving it.

Some turtle facts that we learned:
The shell is made out of bone. It is an external skeleton. There are tons of different kinds, some that look very funky. They need warmth, water and eat all kinds of veggies. You shouldn't keep a turtle in a glass tank without covering three of the four sides, otherwise the turtle doesn't feel safe and some have been known to smack their heads into the glass enough to hurt. Turtle insanity!!! You can measure the growth of your turtle by tracing it on a piece of paper every month. You can also almost tell how old a turtle is by counting the rings on its scutes. Scutes are the sections of the outer shell. They are ectothermic, or cold-blooded.

Like I said, we learned a lot.

Slow

Could this week go any slower?

Here we go.....

He made it there safe and sound. That takes a load off of my mind. Now the fun part begins.

So the tv is off and the girls are reading and writing and having fun. I am enjoying this because the tv is usually on all of the time in this house. It is going to be a quiet four weeks.

Taking some time to myself before Shad has to leave. There is a lot to do in the next three months so I am trying to get things done a little every day. It's hard to believe that we will be living in San Francisco before Christmas. I am excited though.

We took a walk to the Orchard the other day and we found the largest zucchini I have ever seen and it cost me a whopping $0.40!!!! I love that place!

So the girls start school this week officially and I am so very glad that we don't have to fall into the whole "Back to school Sale" crap. What a rip off. Let's jack our prices up and then knock them down to what they would be if you bought them for full price so you feel like you are getting a deal. I have to admit that we do go out and buy up all of the crayons and markers we can find though. Okay, I am sad.

Because we are moving, we have to learn the new Home Schooling rules for California. They seem to me easy, but in such a liberal state, I am going to find some back up in the way of HSLDA as they seem to have a home schoolers back when in need.

I have to thank Amy for introducing me to home schooling. It brought MacKenzie and I together, and has just made my relationship so much better with my kids. I used to yell, and get frustrated and have melt downs, but now I listen, they listen, we communicate. Hailey tells me everything and I mean everything. They ask questions about everything and are interested in learning about all that they can. I love that! I learn along with them and we get to experience so much together. I know it isn't for everyone, but I sometimes think and wish it could be. One day they are all grown up and living their own lives away from us. I want to take advantage of the time I have with my children. I want to develop the best relationships I can with them before they are grown. It isn't always a cake walk, but mostly it is. Praise God for home schooling!

I will stop my soap box now. Time to fold some laundry. Oh Joy!

I can do it!!!!!

So grandma has to go to the doctor today and guess who volunteered? Yep, I bet you would too if your grandma asked you to cut her toe nails. I took one look and said, "Gram, you need a toe doctor, not a grand-daughter."

Anyone want to buy a big screen TV for $2000? Please!?

I bought my girls some Bright Minds books for school. They rock! Great for home schoolers and in schoolers a like.

Today we have already learned about Vikings, and now we are about to do some loving on the grandma. Then it is going to be music practice, math, and critical thinking.

Holy crap, look at the time! I have to go!

I had a dream about a really cool house that I wanted to take a picture of, but didn't have my camera.

Shad leaves very soon so there is a lot to get done in the next three months. I see a lot of dust, cleanser and paint in my future. I also see a lot of exercising and a diet as well. Anyone want to buy a house? How about go on a long walk?

The girls had a recital today and it was very good. They played beautifully and I am very proud of them. There is nothing like watching your children accomplish something they work so hard for.

My Jags kicked butt today. I knew they would. It is just the preseason but it was nice to watch them finally knowing that the season is upon us. I know, I have been brainwashed by my husband. It was destined to happen. :)

100%

Yes, we received the letter today. The one we have waited four years for. I was excited, yet now I feel the slightest fear. Fear of the unknown. Our lives change every day, so why is this different? Could it be that we are about to sell our house, and move to a totally new area where we will know not one person? Oh, well, it could be that. It could be worse too.

I am happy about the move, yet sad that Shad will be gone for so long before we go. We have been through scarier times in our marriage. We will make it.

My mom is already on the guilt ban wagon about how she never gets to see her grandchildren. Funny. I totally won't go there with her. I am happy that it causes her concern. At least there is a heart in there some place. I was beginning to wonder.

So, time to do some planning.

Life

I have been sick for over a week now, but seem to be getting better finally. Getting sick really sucks.

We are still waiting to hear the final word on our moving situation, so that is a bit annoying. I found these really cool storage boxes for our movies that take up way less space, and am starting to get things way more organized with the intention of making our move (when it happens) much easier. I am about to do something that a few people will understand just how awesome it is. I am about to get rid of all of my cd collection. All 150 or so of them. I really don't know the true number because that would cause me to actually step into reality about it and that would be just icky!

I plan on selling them, and then donating the money to the Palmers in case you really had to know.

School is going good, although sickness allowed for laziness and now we are having a hard day of reality. The girls are struggling to finish their work. All I want is to get to Art. My favorite subject. Home schooling is the greatest feeling. Watching your children learn, watching them light up when they finally "get it" and seeing the happiness on their little faces, all proud of themselves. Just amazing.

Happy Birthdays and Realization

My daughter, my oldest daughter is 11 today. Wow, that was fast. I am proud of her, and love her even so much more today than ever if that is even possible.

This week has been a hard one filled with difficult problems and troubles, yet we seem to get through each day with so many blessings. I feel as though I am being prepared for the next three months. The three months that Shad will be gone.

Good things always come from the bad in some sort of way.

Thoughts

I am such a sad case. I read all of these blogs and think, what is the big deal? Some person makes a comment, spills his opinion and everyone freaks out. Perhaps that is because we are all guilty. Guilty of lacking in the loving others department, the mission department. Who knows. I only know how lacking I am in these areas. Yet God has a plan for us, and is going to move us to a new place with a chance to share our love of God. Awesome! I just hope I don't screw up too badly. I just want to love people, and not worry about the rest.

Perhaps I should just keep on keeping on and that is that. Yes, we watch too much t.v. too. Have you ever watchted the veggie one about the sports utility vehicle? Classic!

Book Club info

We will get together next Wednesday the 3rd at the home of the Citizens and Parkers.
For more information, email me.

Thanks!

Life

Going out with a bunch of other home school moms can be tuff. I didn't get home until 2:30am! How time can fly when you are having fun. It was great to get away from everything for a little while and just hang. I just love my fellow home school gang.

Praying for my brother is helping! He is currently divorced, but they are both now getting counseling and it sounds like things are looking better. They need much prayer still as things are still weird and confusing for them both.

My father had his party in Mexico this last weekend. It kind of snuck by me. I almost feel kind of sad that I missed seeing everyone, however, I still have a bad taste in my mouth from the last time I went. Perhaps one day I will get past that. I miss my dad a lot at times.

Test results finally came in from the standard testing my oldest daughter took. Looks like I am not all that bad at schooling my children. She did awesome, however, I knew she would. She is awesome.

Time to run errands, do my house hold chores, be a biller and teacher and mother all at the same time. It can be done you know!

Just Stuff

The places we could end up are around and near San Francisco, and so we are cool with that.

The book we read for book club was good. I am hoping to hear from those of you still interested in getting together to discuss it. It is the last week of July and so we need to plan a meeting.

I had a great time listening to a youth group pastor tonight talking about the kids he ministers to and a trip they took camping. Most of these kids are super talented musically. I was floored. They all seemed to have had a profound trip. Reminds me of my first outing with Apex. Well, sort of.

God has been showing me a lot these days. Most of all He is showing me more about love. Love for His children. His love for me. I am such an ass, yet he loves me anyway. I screw up all of the time, and am a total sinner, but His love is always there. And He is always giving me choices, and I am constantly making the wrong ones. I am working on it though. Because He loves me so much, I am able to start making better choices. I still make wrong ones, (who doesn't) but am doing better.

I pray that you start seeing Gods love for you. Then, lets start spreading the love.

Narrowing it down!

So the choices are now Stockton, Richmond, San Jose, or Oakland. Not our choice, thiers.

Will update later.

School Days

Well, my kids asked me last week when school was going to start. Being that we do school at home, I said "When do you want to start school?" They were getting bored, and so we are starting school today.

I love that my kids want to start school early. It helps me to feel like I am accomplishing THE most important thing about home schooling. That thing is giving them a love of learning. I get it now Amy.

So this day will be filled with Math lessons, writing, reading, science experiments and art. Not to mention the awesome fun of lunch making, music and house cleaning. Music and house cleaning always go together so well, don't you think?

On another note, the San Francisco thing is about 90% now. However I found out that just because they said San Francisco doesn't mean that is where we will end up. It is just the major hub and the places we could end up are San Fran, Hawaii, Guam, San Jose, Sacramento, and Oakland to name a few. I hope it is San Francisco, but we shall see. Could you imagine if we ended up in Hawaii or Guam? Whoa! Break out the surf board and sunscreen dude!

Okay, I am seriously going to find out how to put pictures up on this thing. I have wanted to share pics for a while. I am off to find out how.....

The hunt for a job by October!

Okay, I just thought that up. (you get it right? Hunt for Red October, Hunt for a job by.....) Good huh? Maybe I could get a job in advertising! RIIIIGGHHTT!

So how's it going? Good, good.

I started reading the book club book finally as I just picked it up today at Target Greatland. I am liking it so far, but I am only one chapter in. Perhaps the book club will spill over to San Fran once we get there.

So I got to see Tara today. She is the little girl with the screwed up life. Her mom was given a chance, and was doing really well. Not so well now though. Mom is screwing up again. It is sad and makes no sense to me the one side of the story that I hear. I don't get the full story and so I have to fill in the gaps and just trust that God is working in this case. Tara said she loved us and that she misses us very much. Just kick me in the heart!

Pray, pray, pray that this little girl is taken care of. And for her mother who seems to have trouble with alcohol and drugs and a questionable mental state.

So how about those Boyds huh? Just up and running off to California like that. Who do they think they are? Oh, we are going to do the same. Right on!

Pray for my brother as well, for his broken hand and wrist, for his broken heart, and for his children. Yep, I could write books about the crap in my family. You too huh? Cool. Maybe one day we can get togther and combine stories for some really great reading. I would have to learn how to spell though. Nawwwwwww!!!!


Love you all.