Christmas Sucks...the life out of you

I'm not sure what happened, but this holiday season I am feeling a bit Scrooge-ish. Shad says it's the tree. Our Christmas tree is fake and doesn't smell like anything. He could have a point, but as I sit here looking at our Christmas tree I can't help but start wondering why we feel the need to have a tree in our house anyway. I don't recall any tree in the story of the birth of Jesus. It is fun to hang stuff the kids made on it, but isn't the fact that we feel the need to go out, take a tree and stick it inside our house a little on the cookoo side?

And the gifts; remind me why we feel the need to go out of our way to obtain debt so we can give more stuff we don't need away to each other, because I am not getting it. Yes, I did go out of my way to purchase gifts for my children, and even made some gifts this year for others with the hope that this would make the gifts more meaningful or something, but now I find myself questioning my own intentions. My kids don't need any of the things I bought. They have an over abundance of things they don't need, and I went out and added to their collection. Isn't that a little bit on the cookoo side too?

Perhaps I've been affected by some kind of anti-Christmas virus or something. If I have, and if there is one, would I even want the cure? I feel like Christmas hype has sucked the life right out of me. I don't claim to know the real reason behind Christmas, but I am pretty sure it isn't this.

Bah!

Last Night to This Morning

So last night went something like this:

rain, rain...
wind, wind...
rain, rain...
wind, wind...
rain harder, and harder...
wind, wind, gust...
rain harder, wind gust,
POP, (the lights go out)
Um, can we sleep with you? (the kids are a little freaked)
wind, huge gust, huge gust, rain harder....
POP, (lights come on)
Um, never mind, we will go back to bed. (kids fine now)
wind, rain harder, gust...
POP, (lights go out)
Can you find us the flashlight? (kids still up! It's got to be about 2am now)
rain hard, gust, rain harder, gust...
POP, (lights come on)
POP, (lights go out)

this continues until around 6am. To say the least we are a bit tired but glad that we have power this morning. It was the largest storm I have seen in a long while.

Curves suck, but in a good way!

Life tends to throw around many curves. I am maneuvering such a curve right now in my life.
I really don't care to go into it, but the final realization seems to be that I have made positive change in my life. Long lasting positive change, and that's good. I just wish I didn't have to experience so much sadness and hurt to get there though.

In a few hours I am going to visit the local Senior Center for a class paper I have to do. My hope is to gain the information I need to write the paper although one never knows what can happen. Many of my class mates have tried to visit other places of human service and been snubbed. I kind of find that interesting. Hopefully I do not find myself surrounded by the elderly with canes and walkers caulked and loaded. Now that would suck!

In other news, well, there really isn't any other news worth talking about so...